The Abyss Looks Back

One of the more perplexing and deceptive aspects of being bi-polar is the "manic" part of what used to be (and, in my not so fucking humble opinion, still should be) called "manic-depression."

In other words, a manic-depressive is often unaware that she is experiencing a relapse in her "condition"...

(disease? Do I really have to call it a disease? Or even a "disorder?" Don't I have ENOUGH diseases and disorders, what with the alcoholism and fibromyalgia and obsessive-compulsive disorder and body-dysmorphic disorder... attention-deficit disorder and... and... Fuuuuck.)

... until the "manic" phase ends and she begins an often precipitous drop into the depressive phase.